Linkup and Stress is Poisonous

1. People always tell me....That I look "familiar," but I take that as "You're super average."

2. In the movie based on my life...No one would watch it because it is just like anyone else's for the most part. 

3. Typically, I end up regretting....Eating bad food and carbs. I love carbs, but I ALWAYS regret eating them!

4. I always ask to leave off the....Nothing. I don't ask them to leave off anything because they're serving you FOOD...don't be picky unless you want a 'lil somethin' added to your order!

5. Kim and Kanye really...Who? Because let's not give attention where attention is not due. 

6. My Parents always reminded me...how much they disliked each other.

7. Every single day I.....pretty much have the same exact routine. Monday-Friday. 

8. This one time in College...My roommates and I were at home watching a movie late at night and all of a sudden some guy came barging through our front door bleeding and screaming - me and another roommate physically tried to push him back out the door because he was drunk and out of sorts. That's when I learned how to lock a door.

9. My grossest habit is...I've had wear dirty workout clothes over again just so I could get in a run. So nasty, but determined not to miss a run.

10. My latest white lie was...I told our youngest son not to tell his siblings that we went out to dinner while they were at church youth group the other night. So maybe I didn't lie - I asked our son to "withhold information." I'm horrible. 

11. I know all the words to...nothing. I can't stand when someone is watching a movie with me and they start repeating lines. It's a pet peeve.

12. When I grow up...I don't want to grow up. I'm 30 and still don't want to. It scares me.

13. Sexy time is...Oh jeez - I don't share these things.

14. I will never, ever...And now I have that song stuck in my head.

15. I think it's hilarious...that I keep blogging. I like it and I don't like it. With moving at the end of the month, I think it will be accompanied by a blogging break.

Thanks for the linkup Holly! I'm not really a funny gal lately so I'm sure there could have been much better endings to those sentences.

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I am stressed out, but not to my max yet. I don't know what my max would even be.
Every night I am full of anxiety. When the TV is on and someone else is talking on the phone in the same room, I snap. I get overwhelmed.

I haven't ran since last week...probably last Monday. So that would be almost two weeks. Not running is surely adding to this stress build. But I also am having a difficult time getting back out there. Because I'm stressed, I usually eat. That's honest. And it sucks.

I've gained back 10 pounds over the past couple of months - that's with running, but my diet took a nose dive. We've been saving our pennies for this move, so we've been eating things like Top Ramen and Mac n Cheese. It stinks.

This is not a positive post, and I'm sorry, but I'm in a funk. I'm in a dark place. And I want out, but with everything going on, I just feel like all these monkey's keep jumping on my back and I can't seem to get rid of any of them. Just when I think things are getting better, they get worse. One step forward and two steps back.

I'm venting. I shouldn't do that on this blog because no one likes to read that. But I don't want anyone to think that things are always peachy. They're not for anyone, but I don't want to make someone think mine is. I have good days, but right now I'm having some bad days, weeks, etc.

We're moving on the 31st. It's a big move. I'm losing hair over it. I'm gaining weight. I lost my motivation to run because all I seem to be doing is walking in circles around the house stressing over what needs to get done and making lists. My husband's response to all this is, "Just make a list."

I need to make a freaking list for my lists.

I woke up this way this morning. I went to bed so early because I was so overwhelmed I just wanted to not feel that way anymore. And then I woke up the same way! I really need to get a run in. A long run. I need to make myself so tired from running that I can't feel stressed anymore because there will be nothing left in me to feel anything.

Sorry for the negativity - but today that's honest.

The upside is that it's Friday.